Truth are hurtful!!!

We take risk when we open our hearts because the truth is, if i open my heart, i will get hurt..It is impossible to open your heart and do not get hurt because there is one of the human experience.. Therefore, love takes courage and i need to be courageous.. Finally, I'm dare to face the truth that i will always lie to myself.. I knew no matter what i did, truth is still the truth.. so why not i move on with my life.. From today start, i swear that i will never say because of you anymore.. i do not want my friends and people around me to worry.. and i need to concentrate in my studies.. I can't concentrate just because of you so i will settled it as soon as possible.. You will never bother my mind anymore... I will never cry because of you!! Not even one tear...You are my past and i shall look to the future..You can do it why i cannot???i believed i CAN do it!!! KAYAU~~

one day b4 convo!!

What is he trying to do?? trying to hide his sexy nipple.. lols~~i look so damn ugly in this pic.. FYI.. i havent get ready yet.. blame the camera..one day before convo and we're like having a great chat till around 1something in the morning..we do talk about ghost stories at SAINT!!!the next day our alarm rang till wanna explode already.. haha!!!
I borrowed my bro's spec and wear.. so i told him, " kor ur spec quite nice le" and he quickly answered me " you don't ever try to have any intention towards my spec".. lols!!! To the outside world,we all grow old. But not to brothers and sisters like us!!! We know each other as we always were. We know each other's hearts. We share private family jokes. We remember family feuds and secrets, family griefs and joys. We live outside the touch of time. no matter how long we never meet up or talk, once we're together we are the king of destroyer!!! hahahaha~~~As people usually says brothers and sisters are as close as hands and feet^.^

laugh to the max!!!

I don't know whether is it we believed that the most wasted of all days is one without laughter, therefore we created the best laughter today..As we're having LSSEP at 1.30pm, wei jane, su yin, esther, xin rou and me decided to have our lunch at Steak factory.. while we are having our meal, i received a call from melvin and he asked us to buy two flavour twist ice cream for him so i agreed.. so after our meal we went to Giant to buy the ice cream.. On the way back to school the ice cream suddenly melted faster than the normal rate.. Xin rou and also my hand is filled with the ice cream.. no doubt that our skirt also got ice cream.. we yelled when it dripped and wei jane( our driver) is soo nervous and drift to school.. as if we're going to give birth.. lols~~ as for su yin, she's helping me to clean the ice cream that "kena" my skirt.. the worse part was ESTHER TAN, when she saw this kind of situation, she just sat there and ate her ice cream.. and oh ya, she laughed at us too.. hmph>.

Hard to make decision!!!

ARGH!!! What should i do?? still got one more day and i haven't make up my mind.. should i curl my hair or should i straighten it or should i cut my hair short??? who can give me answer.. i don't want to regret after i have decided... i might look mature with if i curl my hair.. but i might also look like a balloon if i straighten my hair.. haha~~ i feel like cutting my hair short but if is ugly i got to look like SHIT for the past two years... DARN!! still can't make up my mind.. Let me see what will i answer when the hair stylist ask me what do i wanna do with my hair ba since everyone also said that "Good decisions come from experience, and experience comes from bad decisions"!!!

love my mum to the max!!!!

My life began with waking up and loving my mother's face. I can't believe just a word and i can get my yummy tomato fried rice cooked by my mum.. yesterday i told her that i'm bored with canteen food.. don't know what to eat and asked her to cook something for me to eat during recess...

She told me she's very busy and don't want to care about me so i thought my plan to eat something other than canteen food is ruined.. lols.. but the next day when im awake.. i saw a tupperware with my favourite food in it..Yummy Yummy!!! i was so happy that i show it to my friends!!! i felt sooo lucky to have such a great mum but sometimes she do nag me(always when im getting fatter and fatter)..lol~~ i wonder who ran to help me when i fell or kissed the place to make it well.. the answer is simple~~~ My MUM!!!

My mum is a never ending song in my heart of comfort, happiness and beings. I may sometimes forget the words but i will never forget the tunes...

*love u mummy~~muakz!!!

The worse week ever!!!

I had the worse week ever in my life.. i thought luck is my name but mind it..my first name is bad.. which means my name is bad luck.. Oh my gosh.. i cant believed i knock someone's butt today.. (well i mean the car).. haha.. i was driving quite slow and i don't know why i will still knock his car.. i admit it was my fault but i just felt shocked because this things will never happen to me since i start driving.. something wrong with me today?? Now im waiting for the uncle to call me and see how much i need to pay.. just a little problem and i don't think the uncle should make a big fuss lo.. Punishment is lame but it comes.. which means i get a great lecture from my parents and they're trying to deduct the money through my monthly allowance(i will never let that happen).. lols~~hope my bad luck will be over soon and i pray hard that the uncle will just forget bout this matter and don't call me pls... haha~~

*yesterday i knocked someone's car too but it wasn't that serious like now.. see.. how bad luck i am.. my driving skill wasn't that bad actually^.^

Me & u~~

I'm a normal and funny girl that thought life itself is the most wonderful fairy tale of all. Therefore i always hope to have a stable relationship where i can have a guy to love and be there for me to share my sadness and happiness... i knew you since i'm form 2..We had the courage to make the first step to be together.. if i know what love is. it is because of you... We had many great times together.. U made me realized that there is only one happiness in life which is to love and be loved..
Even we do quarrel for minor things but you will persuade me just in a second. for sometimes when we quarrel, my mind tells me to give up but my heart won't let me.. this is because i love you..I still remembered that u promise to miss me more when it is 12midnight.. You will message me and tell me how much you love and miss me.. that was the happiest moment that i have ever had..But sweet moment seems to end very fast.. is like a dream that i need to wake up now... i keep telling myself that should continue sleep and i'll be continue dreaming but i realized i'm just lying to myself.. We had many problems and we do not tolerate each other like what we used to do and ended up we decided to break..that is because i can't be with a guy who cheats on me..
I might miss and cry for u every night but doesn't mean you will do the same.. i will stalk your FB and see whether are u interested in any girls and i noticed that you're having a new target now... there is no use i cried for a guy who don't love me anymore..a single word from you could make me happy but are you sure you going to say a least a word each day?? i keep telling myself that letting go doesn't mean giving up.. But i rather accept that there are things that cannot be.. until now i can't really let you go and start a new relationship because i realized you are still in my heart..loving someone is setting them free. letting go..Therefore when i let go of what i am,i become what i might be.. SO.. from now on.. i will try to forget you completely and live my life to the fullness.. it might takes some times but i don't mind.. i won't cry or sad anymore for a person who do not know how to appreciate me..i thank you that has caused me to suffer.without you i would not have reason to express myself..

*p/s.. i wrote this not because i want him to read it.. but i would like to say it out so that he is totally out from my mind at the moment i post this.. i'm back to the jo ann that you guys knew..thanks to everyone who willing to be my side when i'm.. i promised that i won't be so silly anymore^.^