akon when the time is right

"when the time is right".. this is the word that i used most frequent this first days... Im confused what to do and who can i talked too... In any moment of decision the best thing i can do is the right thing,the next best thing is the wrong thing and the worst thing i can do is nothing...I believed that time could help me to decide everything!!

I do care what others think about me!!!

I like to hide behind the characters I play. Despite the public perception, I am a very private person who has a hard time with all the fame things. I thought by doing these I could make every beside me to be happy but I realised im the one who is suffering. I do care how others think about me and lately im in dilemma.. I do not longer know what is right and wrong.. No one I can talked to.. I felt guilty and I’m selfish.. I hate myself for being like that but what can I do.. I thought everything had settled but ACTUALLY I still care what others will say and think about me.. That hurts me a lot when actually your loved ones said that to u!! Who can tell me what I should do??

Camp at Ulu Kenas~~

3Days 2 nights camp at Ulu Kenas!!! haha~~ 16 dedicates and 17 OT( organizing team)..
First group picture when we reached at Ulu Kenas.. FYI there is no line for digi user.. so call "i will follow u".. LOL..Can't even call my mum to tell her i'm safe..
Second day, after having a bad night.. can't really sleep wel.. ish!! tired le.. haha!! two single bed and 4 ppl sleeping...
The cool and wonderful OTsss... haha~~ enjoy alot with them.. hope to meet them soon..
My group members.. "cap ayam".. they're the best man... hehe!! Even overall we only get second, we enjoy the process far more than the proceeds.. haha~~

Ist note at FB^.^

1. Do you need him/her to be good looking?

Not really.. Heart that matters..

2. Smart?

Erm.. maybe slightly smarter than me..

3. Preferred age?

At least one year and the max is only 6years^.^

4. Preferred height?

I'm 160cm..maybe around 170cm.. LOL

5. How about sense of humor?

It depends but most important is he can cheer me up when im sad..

6. How about piercings?

Hell no!! My parents will kill me if they know my Bf pierce his ear..

7. Accepts you for who you are?

Of course...

8. Pink hair?

NO way.. I hate lala...

9. Mushy or no?

Sometimes especially when he treats me.. hahaha~~

10. Thin or fat?

Moderate will do!!

11. Black, Brown or White (skin color)?

sunshine look^.^

12. Long hair or short hair?

Duh.. of course is short..

13. Plastic or metal?

It means???

14. Smells good?

weird question.. do u wan ur mr right to smell stink??

15. Smoker?

I hate smokers.. i repeat.. i HATE smokers..get my answer?

16. Drinker?

occasionally that's fine for me.. hehe^.^

17. Girl/Boy-next-door type?

well, it depends...

18. Muscular?

Just a little bit is ok but too over.. not comfortable.. hahaha~~

19. Plays piano?

not really but if he can play piano, no harm right??

20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?

I prefer sentimental than rock so for bass bye bye~~

21. Plays violin?

Interesting!!!

22. Sings very good?

I'll like it..

23. Vain?

no for my answer!!!

24. With glasses?

I don't really mind~~

25. With braces?

Is ok for me..

26. Shy type?

It depends but dun la too over..

27. Rebel or good boy/girl?

Of course good boy la.. Duh..

30. Singer or dancer?

Singer:p

31. Stunner?

Better not.. hehe~~ dangerous..

32. Hip hop?

Professional hip hop is ok.. Malaysian style?? PLS~~

33. Earrings?

Hell no!!!

34. Mr/Ms. count-my-ex-girlfriends-until-you-drop?

Better not la.. I can’t really accept.. sorry~~

35. Dimples?

If he have, it will make him more prefect.. LOL

36. Bookworm?

I don’t really mind~~

37. Mr/Ms. love letter?

Love it:P

38. Playful?

Like it.. I’m playful too but not too over.. will get annoyed..

39. Flirt? flirt?

Darn.. who the hell will like flirty guys.. fell insecure.. haha~~

40. Poem writer?

Can I say no.. ewww… it will be like super bored…LOL

41. Serious?

When it is time to serious he need to be serious..

42. Campus crush?

Don’t really care..

43. Painter?

Well.. ok for me..

44. Religious?

Depends.. can’t give you answer until I meet him.. haha~~

45. Someone who likes to tease people?

Not too often.. it will ne annoying.. eee…

46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?

Can I say I want him to be in the centre.. LOL

47. Speaks 20 languages?

A human being can speaks 20 languages?? That’s cool!!!

49. Good kisser?

Whatever.. I don’t know how to differentiate also but who wants a bad kisser anyway.. LOL

50. loves children??

Of course.. I love children soooo MUCH!!

Pooh Pooh^.^

"If ever there is tomrrow when we're not together, there is something you must always remember. You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seen and smarter than you think. But the most important thing is even if we're apart.. I'll always be with you.."

This is why i like pooh pooh so mush because in that movie, there's a mum told this phrase to her children.. So touching and i totally agree with it..From that time onwards i started to like pooh pooh like how i like lee hom.. both of them are my idols.. No doubt la.. i like pooh pooh also a bit because of very CUTE!!! hahaha~~

CUTE le?? that is my fail and alot of baby pooh, baby donkey and also baby rabbit.. KAWAIII~~~~~nice??

*I'm sure many people will say i'm childish but really very cute ma.. Blek~~

"Nai you" chicken rice^.^

All happiness depends on a leisurely lunch.. So, here i am with my lunch "Nai you" chicken rice.. I've been searching everywhere for this food and finally i found it at Uncle Lim... haha~~I'm soo happy even is just a meal because there are no great things, only small things with great love that could make me happy.. LOL!! Yummy Yummy~~

*everyone can have a try.. not that bad actually... but i still like when i ate at KL.. miss those times:(

Eminem - Love The Way You Lie Lyrics

Love this song so much because the lyrics is very meaningful..All the problems starts when You lie to me.. I told You that i hate people lie to me and you still do it.. this song represented my feeling.. Love the way you lie!!!!!

[MV/HQ] Wang Lee Hom 王力宏 - 你不知道的事 Ni Bu Zhi Dao De Shi

I love this song sooo much man!! i want to watch "love disguise" by lee hom geh but too bad Teluk Intan don't have le.. haiz... but im going to get his latest album soon.. got money ady.. thx to my abang who sponsor me.. love u abang.. muakz!! hehe.. i will always support WANG LEE HOM because he is my hubby!!! hahahahaha~~~

Shameless!!!

We are human beings and we have this marvelous brain and heart so there is potential to develop a proper mental attitude through which we can live happily and be a more useful person.. But some people they misuse the creation of god.. They never feel shame with what they did!! For an example, yesterday i was staying back after school for the sidang meeting and went back around 2 something.. when i went to my car with jane(wei jane), i saw a young man stoping his bike beside my car.. i thought he was waititng for someone and i ignored him.. since i next to fetch esther so i decided to drive nearer to the school's gate to fetch her.. when im on the way to reverse the car, i have a great sense that someone is looking at me so i turned to my right and i saw that idiotic guy SS-ing(syok sendiri)... I was like WTFFF.. he's a malay guy and supposingly having his puasa and yet he's doing that lame action.. don't he feel shame and sorry to his god!!! This kind of guy shouldn't be in this world!! god damn it>.<

* to all the girls please be more careful as there are too many insane fuckers wondering in Teluk Intan to find victims!! Do take care yourself and have some precautions^.^